i’ll just catch you in my dreams, 2012. copyright soniaprabowo
alone, anger, cancer, concept, confused, die, emotion, exhibition, friendship, hate, heal, hope, humanity, hurt, jeleous, kill, life, love, me, pain, peace, photography, portfolio, projects, sad, tears, together
if ever i have to pour my heart and tears for all of the pain, caused by every deceased salvation, i would.
One day he woke up feeling confused. He started to wonder why. Then he looked at her – still sleeping quietly near him – and had the answer. “I didn’t kiss her good morning like I always do. Like I always do in this pass 30 years of our life together”. Then he packed his bag, and left her. He realized that he doesn’t love her anymore.***
then suddenly i come back to this, my old old path
i remembered – as same as i could
with all cross roads and intersections
i remembered – as same as i would.
why am i here? – i asked him
why am i here? – i asked her
why am i here? – i asked the another her
they answered ‘watch’ – as same as they could.
the same old movies, the same odd picture
some very bad, i would cry
some very nice, i would die
why do you take me back? – as same as i lured.
watch, and learn – they say, i can’t – i say
you take this task, you take this cleanse
purify your soul, purify your goal
yet i am not done? – as same as i cured.
all bad as you could cry, all nice as you could die
you are not done, my dear
all bad i could shy, all nice i could should – mood
heaven, nirvana, or even an illusion – as same as i could be sure.
jkt / 9 june 2011
this is a love letter from me
i wish to let go of my past
and be able to embrace my future
be able to be clean
be able to trust people
be able to surrender
and be able to love again. completely.
so i can continue my life
me, you, hope, and faith.