JP : sat, Dec 1.

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living in constant fear

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Enjoying Ground Zero, 2012

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when you are not happy with the circumstances, but you have no choice but to stay, just because you don’t want to hurt anybody.

please stop hurting each other

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if ever i have to pour my heart and tears for all of the pain, caused by every deceased salvation, i would.

wrath, 2012. copyright soniaprabowo

Loving Your Valentine’s Day

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happy Vday, 2012. copyright soniaprabowo

One day he woke up feeling confused. He started to wonder why. Then he looked at her – still sleeping quietly near him – and had the answer. “I didn’t kiss her good morning like I always do. Like I always do in this pass 30 years of our life together”. Then he packed his bag, and left her. He realized that he doesn’t love her anymore.***

sometimes

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sometimes am happy –

when i’m full of life

sometimes im sad –

when i took the wrong choice

but i could also be smiling with tears –

that’s when i know that i’m near to Thee.

… #2

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… please don’t let it relapse

once again

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when i smashed my heart with my cane,

the world died.

then when my heart smashed the agony,

the world revolved. once again.

happy birthday. you!

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hey ex!

tommorow will be your birthday.

i will send you a car.

the one you burn together with a house, and money, and airplane, and blah blah.

oh sorry, i got carried away. you ARE still alive.

…

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masih banyak ya, darmawisata daerah bencana. poto2 dengan senyum sumringah. maaf, saya kesel aja ngeliatnya.

its daffodil day!

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today, 27 of August, is daffodil Day!

say you care to people you love with cancer. support them, with all your heart.

please, stop.

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im sad for this earth,

its not only old,

but people in it are hurting each other.

*my eyes are pouring tears for you, constantly –

hoping i can do something with these wings, for you –

with love and peace.

please, stop.

come back in two weeks

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“…i’m struggling for my life”, she said.

“for something you can’t even see?”, he asked.

“i have faith. come back in two weeks time and ask me again. maybe by then am cured”, she smiled and winked to him.

and continue crying in her heart.

take a look at me now

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let me (#2)

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dear universe,

this is a love letter from me

to me

to you

to hope

and faith

i wish to let go of my past

and be able to embrace my future

be able to be clean

be able to trust people

be able to surrender

and be able to love again. completely.

so i can continue my life

for me

for you

for hope

and faith

love always,

me, you, hope, and faith.

i nod

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infeksi, dia bilang
lagi? tanyaku
aku pikir sudah dibereskan? terusku
kamu lelah, jawabnya
ayahku meninggal, jawabku
kau sudah tahu, jawabnya
*anggukku*
sebelum beliau pamit, kamu sudah tau
*anggukku*

stadium? tanyaku
masih awal, jawabnya
bisa sembuh? tanyaku lagi
berobatlah yang serius, liriknya
sebulan? tanyaku terus
masih mau menawar? pelototnya
*gelengku*
buatlah waktu, mintanya
*anggukku*

8 september 2009

is it even a choice?

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am i going to live

with love

or

die

with agony?

faith

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i wish i have wings,
to fly to my peace.
i wish i have fins,
to swim to my joy.

but instead i choose to mend this broken heart,
to hold on to the faith.
which i prepare for my love one,
to comfort and be strong for.

090909

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090909

at the end it is always a victory *wink*

Cecilia

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Satu hari di kamar berukuran sekitar 2×4 meter itu, saya pernah menunggu dengan penuh harapan, bahwa satu hari dia akan mengetuk kamarku, memohon maaf, dan memintaku untuk pulang bersamanya.

Dengan rambut panjang keemasan yang terkena pantulan sinar matahari siang, dan tertiup oleh angin selatan, sang putri menunggu dengan sabar di balkon istananya. Suatu hari pasti sang pangeran berkuda putih akan datang menjemputnya kembali.

Setelah mengetahui bahwa tidak akan mungkin kejadian itu terjadi, saya pun berhenti berharap. Menginginkan hal itu terjadi, iya. Berharap, tidak. Suamiku ternyata sedang jatuh cinta dan menanti buah hatinya dengan perempuan lain. Itu fakta. Dan fakta itu yang harus kuhadapi sendiri.

Hari ini, siang ini.

Mendengarkan lagu yang liriknya kembali mengingatkan pada kejadian beberapa bulan lalu itu, membawaku ke refleksi setahun belakangan ini.

Kira-kira setahun lalu, di kamar kecil berukuran 2×4 meter itu, aku bertanya kepada suami yang menceraikanku, “Mengapa kamu tidak menceraikanku setahun yang lalu? Karena saat ini, setahun setelah itu, saya pasti akan tidak sesakit ini”.

And here I am, setahun kemudian 🙂

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